So many people ask me, "How do you do it?" They can't understand how I can work nights, maintain a home, homeschool, feed the family, etc. I can't either!!! Other than, you do what you have to do. It's not like any of these things are optional! I don't feel like God has given me the freedom to put the kids in school, I can't quit work or we won't eat, and well, we aren't the best at maintaining our home... see my first post in regards to that.
So, how do I do it? Well, it's God! Of course you knew I was going to say that.... but I don't mean He's making dinner tonight! I mean, He has taught me about self-discipline. UGH! Now, except for today- when for the first time in I don't know how long- I slept through the alarm, without fail I get up at 0600! Make the coffee, put a load in the dryer and a load in the wash and fold a load. Spend time with Him, get ready for school, wake and feed the others. This is what every weekday morning looks like. Yes, it's boring! I like boring...now! God has taught me that in the mundane routine, I am much more content. Things don't pile up as much, the kids are happier- probably because I'm happier, the husband is happier...probably also because I am... If momma ain't happy- well you know!
It has been a hard lesson, this lesson of self-discipline, and I'm still learning new areas where I'm lacking it. It has taken many, many years to learn it. How God continues to be patient with me, I'll never understand! I am just thankful that He hasn't given up on me...He continues to place obstacles in my life that I need to conform me to the woman He wants me to be. Of course, during that obstacle I often fail to see how it fits into His plan (probably another post topic!)...but reflective times like this I truly can be thankful, He is giving me the desires of my heart. What a good God!